Self realisation hits…
I have always been thinking why not me. Why don’t have friends with whom I can share all my thoughts? Why don’t I have friends who are happy with me around? Why not? Why only I am the one feeling left out at times?
Today I got answer to all my questions. Because I am a person full of questions. Because I am the one who have already created loads of assumptions. Because I am the one who is afraid to loose a friend with whom I feel some connection. I have made some good friends in school in my college days in coaching institutes. But some lasted for 4-5 years and some may be for months. People say if you have a friendship that lasted for 7 years then they aren’t your friends anymore but they are family. But I don’t think in my life I will ever have a friend who will find me as a family to him/her. I don’t know why I am like this. I am over-concerned at times. I end up ruining things quite a lot. I may be good but I am not the best. I have made loads of friends but on a given day if you ask them there 5 good friends I am afraid but I know my name won’t be there at all. You must be like this guy is so self obsessed. May be you are right. I may not give people much but may be I expect a lot. I think a lot.
At times seeing the friendship of Joey and Chandler I was asking myself do you really find this kind of friendship in this world. And then suddenly I realise, may be not in my case but yes this friendship does exist. You find people tagging along on social media platforms. May be some people aren’t meant for all this. And ya I am one such person.
So I may have friends but may be don’t have people who consider me as one…